It’s funny how we criticize others up until we end up in the same position they’re in.
I don’t know what I want. I don’t know who I want. I don’t know what to do. And I’m scared to talk to anyone about it for being judged. But I feel it all jumbling up inside me and I may just end up popping someday soon.
I need help, advice. Anything. Someone that wont judge me, or say a peep to anyone.
Looks like I’ll just keep it all to myself. oop.
Life Changes
Yesterday, I attended one of my exes weddings. His fiancée wanted me as a bridesmaid, and I gladly accepted.
It funny how things work out. When he and I dated, she hated me. He had dumped her due to the distance, then got with me. She was devastated. She loved him alot, more than I did. Then shortly after we broke up, they got back together. Then I was the one that hated her for stealing him away from me.
And now, almost 3 years later, we’re really good friends and I love her to death. Friendship has no boundaries and I’m extremely happy she and I conquered our boy troubles and became friends. I almost even cried watching them say their vows. They were so happy. Yesterday was probably one of the best days I’ve had in a very long time.
I also caught up with my most recent ex. We just sat there in his apartment alone, talking for hours. I was so comfortable, I probably would of been there all night if he didn’t have work. It made me think about me, my relationship, and my future. About my happiness and how important it is for me to be happy.
I think it’s time to make some changes in my life. I love my job, I love school, I love my friends. But I need to make an evaluation soon of how happy my relationship is making me, and whether it’ll be worth it in the end.
We’re going on a 4 day roadtrip next week. I’ll do my evaluation then.
When I see a girl flirting with my boyfriend
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